My eldest...

My eldest breaks my heart.  

Finally got him into a child Psychologist today.  Hopefully this will help him.  After my obligatory parent 20 mins for the first session to explain why we were here and what was happening, he went in.  

And you know what?  He came out...HAPPY...that made me happy.  I am hoping he can get some of his worries of his chest and start to feel like a kid again, happy, carefree etc..  To be 11 and be so emotionally distressed is not good and it breaks my heart to see it.

This has been such a long term thing...Grade 1, I have been back and forth between GPs, Specialist, dietitians, Ear/eye Drs, teachers, Royal Children's Hospital Behaviour Clinic and I really think this is my last port of call.  

I want him to be happy. 
I want him to enjoy school.
I want him to be an active part of our family.

Unfortunately he inherited my crappy genetics.  (Hence why I would never donate eggs or do a traditional surrogacy)  Ok 1/4 kids to inherit is not bad statistic, but to watch my child suffer because its in his genes...no.

Anyhoo, enough about B...

Skippy is getting bigger, Tummy is getting bigger and I feel her more and more now.  I even felt her by putting my hand on my tummy tonight and got a little poke :) 

Nawww, cant wait until they are stronger and IM and IF can feel them too :)

Just a 2.30AM Blog :) weight, hubby and bubs..Oh my!

Nothing exciting to report, but I'm awake at 2.30AM again so thought Id jot a few things down while its quiet..

Little Miss S is bumping around, I feel her more and more every day..I forgot to post in the Ultrasound Post that she is measuring 2WEEKS AHEAD!!  No surprised here, I do big babies, lol!  Plus I'm sure everyone seeing me waddle around at dog shows and trying to stay in my suits that are popping at the seams are not surprised!  YES I AM FAT...AND PREGNANT...sadly not just Pregnancy fat...LOL  Oh well, its only for a few more months and for a good cause :)  Thank god for spandex in material!! ;)

On my weight, I'm totally fascinated..I am actually the heaviest I have ever been, pregnant or not..I was at my current weight after i gave birth to my first, Corbin...

Interestingly enough my weight has not changed but fluctuated between 500 gms up and down over the last 6ish weeks (I have a totally awesome FITBIT scale)  I am not a huge garbage guts like normal or even when pregnant and find myself leaving food on my plate (That NEVER happens, preg or no)  or just feel full all the time...Also I am craving very healthy food, salads, sandwiches etc
Absolutely no complaints here, I just find it very interesting compared with my other pregnancies...I'm wondering if baby because of different genetics is playing a roll in this?  Its also fascinating as now my belly is growing and usually EVERYTHING grows with it (arse, thighs, arms etc..boobs are a given)  but looking in the mirror yesterday in my gorgeous IP bought pregnancy dress, I actually looked a lot 'All baby'  (This was in the toilets at Hogsbreath Cafe mind you waiting for Miss 3 to go to the toilet...oh and NEWS FLASH I didn't finish my Potato Skins or main course...Hubby asked if I was not feeling well..LMAO..

No new stretch marks either, but then again I have plenty to re-stretch from the others, so I'm not worried by it.  Boob are totally massive and annoying.  One thing Hubby doesn't complain about, ;) 

Just a note on my Hubby. 

He is AWESOME.

He is the most amazing man and I thank my lucky stars every day I met him.  He puts up with my moods, deals with things when I can't.  Is an awesome, super dad.  Lets me have my dog showing and all it involves.  Works hard to pay bills etc.  Sleeps on the couch when he knows he will keep me awake with snoring after long shifts.  Cooks for me.  Does more then his share of housework.  Loves and supports me.  Tells me Im beautiful when I am feeling not...OHhhh and remembers our wedding anniversary when I do not!!!  I love him and admire him SO MUCH xoxo

20 WEEKS!!!! WHOO HOO!!! HALFWAY!

Sooooo Amazing today!!

Today was our 20 week ultrasound!!!

Here is Baby Skippy!  Isnt she gorgeous, and so like her Daddy :)

My appointment was for 9 so the school kids were booked in for morning school care.  But guess what?!  First morning EVER and all three decide they want to sleep in!!! WTH??!!  I had to switch on lights and whip off doonas to get them to start to move, even Miss 3 told me to "Pull my cover up Mummy!"

Mmmm...I told them if they didn't start moving I would pour a cold cup over water over them, cause I'm a super mum (:o)

Kids dropped off and we headed up to the Angliss for our appointment where we awaited John (IF).  Poor IMs condition has flared up and she is prostrate on her couch in pain so was unable to make it :(  Very sad as this was a big day.

Walked into the Ultrasound room and said...ok this is baby daddy, but hes not my husband...paused and waited for the confused look, then laughed and explained...Tee hee!

Ultrasound went awesome.  Everything was were it should be, measuring fantastically and nothing abnormal. One beautiful healthy baby girl.  Lovely 2D and 4D photos, just amazing.  I spent quite a bit of time just watching Daddy watch his baby girl on the screen.  I was very humbled.  This is something they have been waiting for for 15 years...I cant imagine it.

After a good 40 mins we headed off to brunch and then Babies R Us and I explained a lot of baby items and what are essentials and what are mostly fads :) 

Then I went home and Ayla and I both had a nap...sooo tired.

Afternoon saw John baby siting and school pickup while I visited the Respiratory specialist again.  More prescriptions..

Came home, Andrew bought home Fish n Chips for kids and made me a Cesar again :)  

What a day, Busy, Amazing and Wonderful :)

ugh, colds

So I did have plans to go away for the weekend and show the dogs...but the kids cold descended onto me and my asthma flared up again..seems it wasn't to be and I don't think camping in freezing cold temps while trying to contain three kids would have been wise.

Thursday night when I was supposed to leave I felt so awful and crawled into bed with my book as soon as hubby got home.  My gorgeous DH made me up a warm chicken Caesar salad and brought it up to my room to surprise me...nawwww  It was so goooooood!

Friday night after putting Miss 3 to bed and she finally went to sleep..after a bit of a battle! lol  I lay down to read again.  Teig (6) crawled into bed next to me for cuddles and went to sleep (DH was working late) love that.

My breathing was getting worse and worse despite taking all my provided meds.  I got to the stage where I was gasping to get air into my lungs so rang DH and told him I was going to the hospital. Went next door to get a neighbour to watch kids.  Yes I drove.  No I shouldn't have, but I would have to be half dead to call an ambulance...

 

Got into the ER and they admitted me straight away and put me on the mask...omg, within 20 mins I could start to relax again!!  Definitely the right thing to do. They gave me the steriod pills again too and i have to be on them for 5 days again to settle it all down.  I do see my Respiratory specialist again in Tuesday.

So I was there until about 11.30pm and they did want to keep me for obs overnight.  Andrew had to work today and I felt ok so I went home.

I cant believe how annoying the asthma is this time!!  I know it only popped up so bad again because of my colds, so hopefully it settles fast.

Other then that, lots of small baby bumps happening now!

Crap blogger award..slack so slack

Wow, I am so slack.  Actually I hate writing on my laptop so wait until I am on my home computer which isn't very often these days!

We had our appointment at the Angliss..with what seemed like everyman and his dog..ok I lie, but there were a few people there.  Head OB, Head Midwife, Social Worker, My assigned Midwife and someone and someone else...I got a bit busy entertaining Miss Ayla while everything was 'disscusssed'. 

To what purpose I am unsure of still...but there you go.


Then had our booking appointment straight after with my Midwife.  John hung out with Ayla in the lounge playing with the toys.  Then down to book 20 week Ultrasound through the hospital and more bloods.

Glad I'm not scared of needles..the amount Ive had I could be a watering can!

BABY HAS A NICKNAME!!!!!

So Miss Baby is now called "SKIPPY"

Yup, true!  Why:  John is Filipino American while Pam is a White Aussie...so in the USA there is a brand of peanut butter called "Skippy" and as (John explains) baby will be born with a lovely caramel complexion she has earned the nickname after a peanut butter~ could have been worse, ie KRAFT! LOL

Bub is kicking a bit more now, feeling very low still. Still keeping me up at night :/