soooo, thats 15 weeks to go! OMG where has the time gone!!
Feeling pretty good :) Ive gotta quit whinging!!
I cant get over how small my belly is still, so cute! (well its small for me, lol!) Baby Skippy is still a bit of a night owl, especially loves 2am, lol!! Lucky I have an awesome library with some great books..and theres always FB..ha!
Pelvis is still pretty happy with the steroids as is the asthma. All well controlled :) Fairly pain free which is great!
Ive decided to just take a big deep breath and think 'whatever happens, happens' no point in worrying over birth etc, it just stresses me out too much. Have a midwife appointment on Friday, will just smile and nod ;)
I hate winter.
I do however enjoy these glorious sunny days we have been having..yup, its cold in the morning, but later, beautiful! I get far more done on these days, get a bit of pep in my step! lol!
Haven't been showing lately, cant be bothered really. I have pups too which i am enjoying :) I have a few enteries ready to go..but thats if I get them in the mail or not!!
I have some photos on my iphone and will upload them when I download them on my big PC...a nice belly shot at 24 weeks :)
Where to start...?
I haven't written in a bit as it got a bit emotionally draining for a while.
Eldest son is being sorted, its looking positive for now.
I am 24 weeks as of yesterday. But its not been smooth..well the pregnancy has but everything else..sheeeeeesh, add the 'S' word to anything and it just seems to cause confusion and trouble...far out, I was getting so angry, confused and upset..
Ok..I have given birth 4 times...the last 3 were fast, easy and with no drugs or intervention..so you think the 5 would be simple right? Hmmmm, well sure it would be but it has the word "Surrogacy" attached..OMFG!!!!! Someone get me some gas now to deal with people!!!!!
Started off as I had to rearrange my midwife appointment as my girl decided to whelp and I was delivering them and wasn't going to leave...'my' Midwife says, "oh it doesn't matter you've been shifted to Specialist Midwifery Care". Wait. What? No one told me!? I ask "whhhhyyy?"
"Um er, um...oh your on anti-depressants, are 35 and have asthma issues..oh and your a surrogate.."
Silence.
Wait. What?
Did ANYONE look at my records from previous births/pregnancies??? Yes, I had asthma, yes I've always been on Anti-depressants - I am a chemical depressive, so I treat my depression as a Diabetic treats Diabetes. I take my meds, I am ok.
Seems my hopes of having an intervention free birth in a calm environment were slipping out of reach. You see people, the way I see it is THE BIRTH is what I get to take home...take that away from me and what am I left with, shit memories...which should be beautiful.
Got off phone blubbering, emotional wreck, rang IM..she was horrified too!
The I left it. I had too. Sometimes I just close off and have to stop processing things until I feel ready to deal with them.
Hubby was wonderful as he knows how important it is I get the birth I want, once again, poor fella <3
Fast forward to this week..
A Midwife Helen rings to see why I wasn't at an appointment...erm, what appointment? Seems I had been lost in translation and no one had actually told me!
So I began to have a long chat to her, and was pleasantly surprised. She was lovely, and explained things to me about Specialist Midwifery. (Seems in my case it was so we could schedule extra appointments, longer appointments etc, not because of my 'conditions'
Today I had my OB appointment, Midwife Kate was attending too...sooo relieved. OB was lovely and unless my 'conditions' play up I wont have to see her again, although she's actually one OB I think would be pretty cool...(whoa, did I really say that?!)
Midwife Kate was also awesome and if the other two attached to SMC are the same it will be totally cool. I am feeling so RELIEVED for sure! We also had a meeting with the Social Worker for the Hospital..that my friends is another page I think...I get so mentally fatigued by it all sometimes....the short of it all, she is lovely but there is only so much she can do..
Baby Skippy is getting more vigorous, and measuring well. Heartbeat great. The OB did book me into growth ultrasounds at 28 and 34/6 weeks to watch babies growth.
She still seems to be a night owl and I find myself reading/on computer at about 2am every few nights! lol!!
Interesting to write is that Ive been craving asian food like mad...Ive never really been interested in rice and noodles etc..but boy does Skippy say nom nom nom now!!
After appointment yesterday IPs, I and Miss 3 went for Yum Cha, mmmmmmm :) (I made more mess then the 3 year old!)
I have also taught IPs how to buy second hand, near new baby stuff! (ie source what you are after, note name and product number and then go ebay or gumtree it!! 9/10 someone has had only one baby and ready to sell! ;) ) They have got some super cute clothes and an awesome pram already :)
